Lust and comfort (not always about porn)

A revelation I have known for a while.  It is not about the filters it is about the heart.  It is not about accountability it is about the heart.  Filters are only deterrents.  Accountability?  well you decide?   Another revelation is where I relied more on the Filters,   than I did Holy Spirit to stay pure.  What are you relying on?

It has taken me a long time to come to that and it took Daddy to reveal that to me.  As of four weeks ago I am filter free.  I have had filters on my computers since 2001.  I became a “professional get around the filter guy”   Until the heart is healed all the filters and accountability will not do anything.  They are temporary fixes.   There are no filters in the grocery store.  There are no filters on your eyes when you are staring at a hot woman. .  The filter is the heart.  There are no accountability partners in the grocery store either.   I do believe there is a season where you do need men in your life that will hold you accountable.  I do believe there is a season where you need a filter on your computer.  Let’s face it.   If you want to look at porn no man and no filter will prevent that.  There is no filter for the visual Rolodex that is in your mind.

I am writing to you on a computer that has no filter on it anymore and my wife knows about it.  We talk about it.  I don’t have men that hold me accountable any more,  it doesn’t work for the most part.  You can only be held accountable to your Daddy in Heaven.   You need brothers to sharpen you and to speak truth to you.

You have to come to the understanding that this is not about lust but it is about the comfort that you seek when you believe the lie about yourself.  Whatever that lie may be.   What if your comfort was food?  There is not a filter for that? What if your comfort was golf?  No filter there. There is not a filter when you feel bad and want to go to Cabela’s or to best buy and spend money so you can feel better

My question to you is this.  What is the lie that you believe about yourself that is keeping you from the promise land?

 I have read every book out there about porn addiction and they all say the same thing but with a different twist.

I am not saying remove the filters,  Because I had them for years.   What I am saying is you do need to take your heart to Daddy.

I am the Light of the World  John 8:12

12 Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, m“I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

Never saw it coming part 2 Brag on Daddy!

Hello everyone,  I was on Quest last week.  (what a great week)  I want to share with you a couple of things.   I  was walking down the road praying Saturday morning on Quest 137.   I got it,  the revelation that my Lord is my Daddy.   It finally clicked from my head to my heart.  You have no idea how big this is.  I honestly didn’t realize how big it was until the revelation hit me and I was in tears.  This quest was very powerful.   It was also very powerful for me in particular.   What I wanted to share with you is what I got this morning in my time with Daddy.  I was very emotionally and physically tired and I still woke up at 5 o'clock a.m. and spent almost an hour with Him this morning. My devotion took me to 1 Corinthians 10 not realizing that that is the chapter that has the temptation Scripture in it. You know the one that goes “no temptation has seized you accept what is common to man and God is faithful and he will always provide your way out so that you can stand up under it.”  When I read it this morning I felt like I was supposed to read in the mirror Bible.   Daddy had my number dialed in this morning,  I did not make it past verse 13. It was so different I didn't even realize it was the temptation scripture that I know so well.  It was verse 12 that got me.   1 Corinthians 10:12  If you reckon that you have it all together, make sure that you are standing strong (in your true identity) when temptation strikes! How foolish it would be for us to now fall into the same unbelief that killed Israel! (They believed a lie about themselves [Num 13:33].) 10:13 Your situation is not unique! Every human life faces contradictions! Here is the good news: God believes in your freedom! He has made it possible for you to triumph in every situation that you will ever encounter!  in fact 1st Corinthians 10:13 is the first scripture I ever memorized so what I want to let you know is that I no longer have filters on my computers because I don't need them anymore. My Daddy has healed me my heart and my heart is good.  I have had a paradigm shift in my heart and now I know my Lord as Daddy. 

So here is what I know.  I have a Daddy who loves me and calls me son.  My heart is healed and whole.  My identity is in Christ.    I have been crucified.

This Quest …. Quest 137  I received freedom in so many ways.  I am new……. And all the glory goes to my Daddy!!!!!!

John 8:54  If I want glory for myself it does not count, but it is my Father who glorifies me ……… 

Never saw it coming

Below is part of a writing I sent to the staff that I am serving with next week for the November Quest.   Last Wednesday is when I sent this to them.   I did not see that it was an in your face warning for me.  I thought it was for the questers and it still could be for them.

I have been chewing on the passage since last Friday 23^rd.   I just can’t get away from it.  Does it have something to do with me?   Not sure yet.   2^nd Corinthians 4:4  The survival and self-improvement programs of the 1religious systems of this world veil the minds of the unbelievers; exploiting their ignorance about their true origin and their redeemed innocence.  The veil of unbelief obstructs a person’s view and keeps one from seeing what the light of the gospel so clearly reveals: the 2glory of God is the image and likeness of our Maker redeemed in human form; this is what the gospel of Christ is all about. (The god of this 1aion, age, refers to the religious systems and governing structures of this world. The unbelief that neutralized Israel in the wilderness was the lie that they believed about themselves; “We are grasshoppers, and the ‘enemy’ is a giant beyond any proportion!” [Num 13:33, Josh 2:11, Heb 4:6] “They failed to possess the promise due to unbelief.” The blueprint 2doxa, glory of God, is what Adam lost on humanity’s behalf. [See Eph 4:18]) The Mirror

I have left somethings in this writing off because it talks about the quest I am leaving on next week. 

What I have learned is I am the one this is about not the questers.

2^nd Corinthians 4:3  If our message seems vague to anyone, it is not because we are withholding something from certain people! It is just because some are so stubborn in their efforts to uphold an outdated system that they don’t see it! They are all equally found in Christ but they prefer to remain lost in the cul-de-sac language of the law! The Mirror

No doubt after reading my blog yesterday you probably figured that while my wife was away fighting for women hearts I laid my sword down.  2 Samuel 23:9-10 And next to him among the three mighty men was Eleazar the son of Dodo, son of Ahohi. He was with David when they defied the Philistines who were gathered there for battle, and the men of Israel withdrew. He rose and struck down the Philistines until his hand was weary, and his hand clung to the sword. And the LORD brought about a great victory that day, and the men returned after him only to strip the slain. (2 Samuel 23:9-10 ESV)   I did not strike the enemy down until my hand was weary. What I did realize is that I tried my absolute hardest to walk in victory in my own strength.  Don't get me wrong I talked to my brothers who I do life with.   I was in the word every morning but I was deceived.  I went to counseling yesterday.  I told her that several men that I do life with spoke truth into me and gave me words of encouragement. I thought I received those words, but I didn't. Because deep in my heart I already knew I was going to fall. My counselor asked me this question. I thought you told me that you met with a group of men that were transparent? I said, that's exactly what I told you that's what we do we're transparent.  Then she said something that just made me very sad. She said,   “Well, when they were speaking truth to you and you knew in your heart that you were going to fall (unbelief) you didn't say that to them.  Therefore you were not transparent and as we were talking about this she made another statement.  The reason you fell is because you are living out of the experience from your past.  You need to stop given weight to the evidence and instead start giving weight to the truth.  Then we discovered the lie. What I have always thought the lie was what if I don't ever get to look at porn again?  No the lie is …… if I never get to look at porn again I won't be ok.

Needless to say yesterday was a good day I am in a good place I set on the couch last night with my wife and we talked about this.   She is an amazing woman. From this day forward I will be the warrior clinging to his sword.   My heart is good.

The deadly fire.

I have often wondered why so many of us including me.  Will look at pornography knowing that nothing good comes from it.  Last week while my wife was on heart quest I got a vision.  My vision was where I was leaving the light and walking into a tunnel.  When the light begin to fade I started to see at the other end of the tunnel where there was a red glow. I was curious because I felt like I couldn't turn back to the light so I had to go forward where the new light was. When I got closer I could see that it was a fire. It was a consuming fire but not a consuming fire from the Lord, it was a deadly fire from the devil.  It wanted to consume me.   I was curious where the fire was coming from so I got closer.  As I got closer I could feel the heat, but that didn't matter.  (I was already believing the lie) I was still curious so I got even closer and it was getting really hot.  I was starting to sweat and I realized I was too close to the fire. (it was now to late)  I figured I better somehow turn around before I get burned.   What the Lord showed me was that it was too late,   even though I didn't get burned on the outside I got burned on the inside because it was a radioactive fire. It is already burned my heart and was frying my brain.  Why?   I got too close and didn't even realize it and that's what pornography does. The moment I made the decision to walk away from the light and into the tunnel was the moment that the radioactivity begin to kill me.   That was the vision that the Lord gave me. 

 Isaiah 2:5  O house of Jacob,  come, let us walk in the light of the Lord.

I am the Light of the World  John 8:12

12 Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, m“I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

Dead men have no rights!

Time with the Lord:   This morning my devotion took me to Romans 6 in the Mirror bible.   6:12 you are under no obligation to sin; it has no further rights to dominate your dead declared body. Therefore let it not entice you to obey its lusts. (Your union with his death broke the association with sin [Col 3:3].)

You hear people say ……   dead men have no rights.   Todd White says.  “When you signed up for this you signed up to die.”    Two very powerful statements.  In the above passage Holy spirit makes a statement.   “You are under no obligation to sin.” So why is that so hard sometimes?   This week I felt obligated to sin.   I received an email last week that was very hurtful and damaging to my heart.   Emails can be very hard to understand.  What I mean is ….. We try to read it in the tone we think the other person is writing it.   Most of the time we are wrong.  It boils down to “pain is inevitable suffering is optional.”  Pain is going to happen.   People say mean things that will hurt you.  It can’t be helped.   How we respond can be helped.  For me,   sometimes I respond to other people the way I want to respond to the person that hurt me.   (Not good).  When I said I chose to sin I did.  I stayed angry and in my heart I wanted to be vengeful.  (My wife says I have a mean streak in me, not sure where that comes from)  The suffering I was walking in was making it hard to do anything.   I had lost my focus.   Then came Wednesday morning.   Sitting on the couch just being quite at 5:00 in the morning.   I asked the Lord what to do.  The problem with the question is I had not even thought two words of the question when I hear “let it go” and there was no mistake it was Holy Spirit.   Can I say I was not very happy about that!  I was pissed!  Unfortunately there is no arguing with the one who is always right.   You can try but it just doesn’t work.   Now my heart is good and I am back to where I was before the email. 

Struggling with sin is really annoying.  I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I could not or chose not to do anything about it.   The truth is … many times when we are walking in something that is unrighteous, it takes a word from the Lord to turn us back in the righteous direction.

6:13  Do not let the members of your body lie around loose and unguarded in the vicinity of unrighteousness, where sin can seize it and use it as a destructive weapon against you; rather place yourself in 1readiness unto God, like someone resurrected from the dead, present your whole person as a weapon of righteousness, (Thus you are reinforcing God’s grace claim on mankind in Christ; 1paristemi, to place in readiness in the vicinity of). 6:14  Sin was your master while the law was your measure; now grace rules. (The law revealed your slavery to sin, now grace reveals your freedom from it.)

Be Sons today!

You will deny me three times.

To think I was just cruising along in Matthew 26 this morning not really getting anything until I got to this passage.  I thought … everyone knows this passage.

 Matthew 26:75  And Peter remembered the saying of Jesus.  “Before the rooster crows, you will deny me three times.”  And he went out and wept bitterly. 

….. Why is this important?  I hear in that quiet little voice in  my spirit.  "You deny me all of the time."    Well …….   What do you say to that?   As I am writing I hear,   you deny me when you are driving and that person cuts you off, you deny me when you walk by that person and I say pray for them and you keep walking.  You deny me when you say you are too busy to spend time with me.  You deny me when you think your way is better than mine. You deny me when I tell you something to do and you choose not to do it.   Need I say more?

This morning’s Oswald is about watching with Jesus instead of watching for Him.  I think when we are watching for Him it is easy to miss Him or deny Him.  When we are watching with Him then it is hard to deny Him…. Wouldn’t you say?  That would be like    ….   Being Jesus with skin on … watching people and circumstances with Jesus eyes.

When you watch with Jesus you will not have to watch for Him. 

When you are watching with Him you could say you are standing beside Jesus instead of Him standing beside you.   Just a thought.

K

Little Whispers

So my morning devotion started off like this.  Good morning Lord.  I am asking for healing in my wife’s neck and give me a word for this morning… amen …..   that was my prayer.  Sorry I am short and to the point.  A lot of times my prayers come while I am driving.     

Then I read

SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS:

This is a time when small corrections will reap big benefits.  Don't overlook anything that grabs your attention even for a moment, for I will show you the power of paying attention to details.  And, I will cause the insignificant to become significant, says the Lord.  Sharpen your focus to see the tiny things, and magnify your ability to hear my still, small voice.  Proverbs 4:1 Hear, my children, the instruction of a father, and give attention to know understanding.

The reason this devo is so important is so many times it is the little things that we see or hear that we wonder if that was the Lord.   It is so easy to think  “was that God?” or was that just my inner voice.   Many times in the morning during my quiet time I will just close my eyes and just be still for five to ten minutes.   No prayer, no talking, no reading and no music and then read.   It is one of the most peaceful times during my day.  Many times that is when I will hear something.   That is me though. 

Needless to say the devo really caught my attention with everything that has been going on over the last two weeks.   So then I read Proverbs chapter 4 which really spoke  to me. 

Proverbs chapter 4:18- 23 But the path of the righteous is like the light of dawn,

Which shines brighter and brighter until full day.  19 the way of the wicked is like deep darkness;  they do not know over what they stumble. When does a deceived person know he is deceived? KG   20 My son, be attentive to my words;  incline your ear to my sayings. Listen,   believe and obey the smallest of whispers KG  21 Let them not escape from your sight;  keep them within your heart.  Journal and mediate on what you hear KG   22 For they are life to those who find them,  and healing to all their flesh.  23 Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life. Protect your heart KG

Last thing,  This is what I heard at men’s group this morning.  if you have been on quest then you have heard the saying “radical obedience always precedes the miraculous,” and I truly believe that,  but what I realized this morning during our men's group is that sometimes just a simple yes can bring radical changes in your life. ( Proverbs 4:18)  Almost two weeks ago I said a simple yes and God has moved in His business like I have never seen before.  I have seen him move in my relationship with my daughter and my niece. I have seen peace in my heart and a sense of awareness.

John 15: 26 “But when the Helper comes, whom I will send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth, who proceeds from the Father, he will bear witness about me. 27 And you also will bear witness, because you have been with me from the beginning.

Are you fully clothed?

So Yesterday (Sunday) was the first day in 4 years that I did not do any type of work for my company on Sunday,   I have to say it has been like ………..  a new type of freedom.

I woke this morning thinking what could I do today?   How about nothing.   So I got up and got in the word.  It was actually a struggle.  Not sure why it just was.   I am glad I pressed in.  It is so easy sometimes to just let the attitude or the world get in the way of the Lord.

I have noticed over the last couple of days that I have felt the lust trying to creep in and I said no!   This always seems to creep in during my prep for Quest which started today.   I am a son and that is a fact and I will walk as a son.   My name is Kevin and the spirit of the Lord is upon me!

 My devotion took me to Romans 12 but the huge word came to me in the last scripture of chapter 13 .

 Romans 13:14  By being fully clothed in Christ makes it impossible for the flesh to even imagine to find any further expression or fulfillment in lust. Jesus is Lord of your life. (1enduo, fully immersed in the consciousness of the Christ-life, as defining you.) So I am reading this over and over where it says “Christ makes it impossible ………..”   this so resonates in my spirit.   Jesus is Lord of my life!

 As I go back and read starting with verse 13:9

 13:9  Love makes it impossible for you to commit adultery, or to kill someone, or to steal from someone, speak evil of anyone, or to covet anything that belongs to someone else. Your only option is to esteem a fellow human with equal value to yourself.

13:10  Everything love does is to the advantage of another; therefore, love is the most complete expression of what the law requires.

13:11  You must understand the urgency and context of time; it is most certainly now the hour to wake up at once out of the hypnotic state of slumber and unbelief. Salvation has come.

13:12  It was night for long enough; the day has arrived. Cease immediately with any action associated with the darkness of ignorance. Clothe yourself in the radiance of light as a soldier would wear his full weaponry. (The night is far spent, 1prokopto, as a smith forges a piece of metal until he has hammered it into its maximum length.)

13:13  Our lives exhibit the kind of conduct consistent with the day, in contrast to the 1parade of the night of intoxicated licentiousness and lust, with all the quarrels and jealousy it ignites. (The word, 1komos, refers to a nocturnal and riotous procession of half drunken and frolicsome fellows who after supper parade through the streets with torches and music in honor of Bacchus or some other deity, and sing and play before houses of male and female friends; hence used generally to describe feasts and drinking parties that are protracted late into the night and indulge in revelry.)

 I find it interesting that I had to hear verse 14 before 9-13 spoke to me

It is like a recipe for freedom.

Then you go back to Romans chapter 12   therefore I urge you brothers in view of God’s mercy,  to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice Holy and pleasing to God.  That would be you Spiritual act of Worship

So the question today is ………. are you fully clothed?

102 days part 2

            So Wednesday the Lord spoke to me about the Sabbath.   So last night  I crawled in bed and I was going to scan through Facebook when I hear Hebrews 4 ……. and in my mind I'm thinking,   what?,   you never tell me to read at night.   So I read it and was stunned.  All of Chapter four is speaking about entering into God's rest.  Not necessarily about the Sabbath but it is so much more than that.

4:3 Faith (not our own works) realizes our entrance into God’s rest (into the result of his completed work). Hear the echo of God’s cry through the ages, “Oh! If only they would enter into my rest.” His rest celebrates perfection. His work is complete; the fall of humanity did not flaw its perfection.

4:10  God’s rest celebrates his finished work; whoever enters into God’s rest immediately abandons his own efforts to compliment what God has already perfected. (The language of the law is “do;” the language of grace is “done.”) 4:11  Let us therefore be prompt to understand and fully appropriate that rest and not fall again into the same trap that snared Israel in unbelief.  The Mirror

So I am still chewing on this.  I have read it like 4 times already.   So I am looking at this and I see where it pertains to me.   Let me explain …….  I joined a leads company when I didn’t need to back in June.  A friend of mine told me yesterday that he didn’t understand why I needed to go work another field when the field I was already working was producing more fruit than I could handle.   Basically what I did was try and improve on what God was already doing.  Grasp what I am saying here …. Trying to improve on what God was already doing.  Like He was not doing enough already so I needed to help Him Hebrews 4:10

102 days part 2

The other part of the story is about a Leads organization I joined back in June.  So I'm going to include an email that I sent this organization yesterday morning when I got home from my men's group..

Hello owner,   so I am going to do my best not to make this spiritual but it is.   I have had a check in my spirit the last month about being involved with your organization. Today I got confirmation two ways that I'm not supposed to be a part of your organization. This morning I heard Holy Spirit say at my men’s group “I never told you to be a part of that lead company.”    They when I got home my wife wanted to know what we had talked about and she normally never inquires.   I told her what I felt like Holy Spirit was telling me and she said “I never thought you were supposed to be on it from the beginning and I asked you why did you sign up without talking to me first?”    I just realized that I had not landed one job this summer anywhere since I been with your organization. All the work that I have received was booked before joining your organization.   I just looked at my estimates and since June 1^st I have done 42 estimates so far this summer and have not landed 1 job.   This is unheard of for me. So I'm asking you to cancel my membership effective today.  I have no doubt your company is going places but lord has me going in a different direction. 

 So having said that I picked up my first job in 3 months last night.  And then two calls this morning for two more jobs.  I realized after I went back to town that it was 40 jobs not 42 and 40 is a very significant number in the bible.

The question for you is this…… are you helping God or staying out of the way?

Radical obedience always precedes the miraculous

102 days

       It has been 102 days since I have written.  It seems like an eternity, but there have been reasons.   The Lord has been dealing with me on several fronts.  Selfishness, Jealousy and I also believe He just wanted me to listen Him.  I have not even had a desire to write.  I even tried the other day and got half way through and just deleted it.   Today it is time and I feel released.   Here is what I was giving today.  I woke this morning at 3:30 and was thinking this can’t be the Lord, but I was wide awake.  Before I could even get the whole thought of “am I supposed to get up?”   I hear   “GET UP”   so I did and got in the word.

“If you turn back your foot from the Sabbath,  from doing your pleasure  on my holy day,  and call the Sabbath a delight  and the holy day of the Lord honorable;  if you honor it, not going your own ways,  or seeking  your own pleasure,  or talking idly;  14  then you shall take delight in the Lord,  and I will make you ride on the heights of the earth; I will feed you with the heritage of Jacob your father, for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.”

  

I hear, Believe and obey   It is so easy to hear and obey but you have to believe!   I have been working on Sunday doing paperwork and estimates to the point of burnout.  Today that changes.   No more on Sunday.  Clear Creek Home Improvements is closed on Sunday.  Period!   What has been taking me 7 days to do will now get done in five or six.   I Believe!!!

As I continue to read I went through 58 thru 59 to the end and then I got this.

59:21 “And as for me, this is my covenant with them,” says the LORD: “My Spirit that is upon you, and my words that I have put in your mouth, shall not depart out of your mouth, or out of the mouth of your offspring, or out of the mouth of your children's offspring,” says the LORD, “from this time forth and forevermore.” (Isaiah 59:21 ESV)   this is my legacy

Something else.   My name is Kevin and the Spirit of the Lord is upon me.   I am a SON and I am anointed.

I have to remember that I am the steward of Clear Creek Home Improvement’s not the owner.

Selfishness

James 3:16-18  (NLT)
16 For wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and evil of every kind.  I am going to Quest to serve May 12th.  This passage came up 19 days ago when I was writing my getting to know you to the staff.  One of the questions asks for a prayer request.  My prayer request on April 12th was about my struggles with Jealousy and selfishness.  Little did I know that this was going to raise its ugly head Tuesday 4/21.  It was ugly….. You see my wife has 4 wonderful relationships.  Three with her kids and one with her sister.  My relationships with my kids are good just not on the same level.  My relationship with my brother is not bad but could be a lot better.  I have tried to speak with him but he is in his on world.  Nothing I can do about that.   There is no bitterness and we get along fine we just don’t talk much.
 The word says you reap what you sow......  Galatians 6:7-9 (NASB) 7 do not be deceived; God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, this he will also reap. 8 For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. 9 Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.  Now my kids in Amarillo ……. I have good relationships with them;   I just don’t talk to them as much as I should or my parents for that matter.   So a friend of mine the other day said this ….. “Why can’t you just be happy for your wife?”   I said “what?”   Then it clicked.  I have never been happy for the relationships that my Kelly has with her family.  What an ASS I have been.  I have only been jealous, and then comes the selfishness and the passive aggressive behavior.  Maybe I am selfish first then jealous……..   who knows what comes first.  They are both bad!  
  I have made it so my wife walks around on eggshells at times when she talks to her children or sister.
So just what exactly have I been sowing?   Well it is not good.   Here is what I know.  You reap what you sow and I am tired of the crap that I cause.  So it is time for a change.  Todd White says’  “ I am so free from me I am free from you!”  “Don’t return attitude with attitude!”  Sometimes I feel so close …….. but as you know I am not one to where a mask.   So verse 16 is who I was yesterday.  Today I walk in the promise of verse 17 and 18.

 James 3:17 But the wisdom from above is first of all pure. It is also peace loving, gentle at all times, and willing to yield to others. It is full of mercy and the fruit of good deeds. It shows no favoritism and is always sincere. 18 And those who are peacemakers will plant seeds of peace and reap a harvest of righteousness.[a]

Selfishness crushes Legacy   I have to remember that it is not my world I just live in it.

Unbelief

Unbelief

So ….. it has been awhile.   My office has been in disarray for a while.  In my new shop I have no internet yet.   Ever since my last quest in January I have been spending a lot of time with the Lord in the mornings.  Over an hour every day.  I have been giving lots of nuggets.  Saturday we went and heard Todd White at Catch the Fire DFW 3-21-15 .  Really good.  I heard a couple of things.  One was about the simplicity of the gospel.  2 Cor. 11.3 But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtlety, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ. KJ The big thing was where he was speaking for himself and saying that for him the simplicity is taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.  I felt like I heard Holy Spirit say that is what your problem has been   you choose not to take some thoughts captive.  You choose sin-consciousness instead of son-consciousness.

I know for me taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ’s works.  I know for me ....... there have been many times that I have deliberately chosen not to take that thought captive for some reason or another.  I believe for the most part 99.9% of the time it is because I don’t believe who God says I am.  UNBELIEF.  I have said many times and probably so have you.  God help me with my unbelief.  When it should be God help me believe who you say I am!

This morning I am reading in Titus chpt 1 when I get to here.  1:15 the truth proves everything to be pure but to those who are contaminated with unbelief in their minds and conscience everything seems to be equally stained with impurity. (Unbelief is to believe a lie about yourselves. [Num 13:33 and 2 Cor 4:4]) 1:16  They might even pretend that they know God by saying a few nice clichés, but when it comes to real life the veneer cracks and the stench is nauseating; the effects of unbelief cannot be camouflaged.  The Mirror

I also heard  Holy Spirit say.  There is no root to the lust it is disobedience,  rebellion.  You choose not to take the thoughts captive,  My greatest time for my veneer cracking is when I am alone.  Not today!

How is your veneer?

Very Powerful

1 Thessalonians  4:3 It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; 4 that each of you should learn to control your own body[a] in a way that is holy and honorable, 5 not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God; 6 and that in this matter no one should wrong or take advantage of a brother or sister.[b] The Lord will punish all those who commit such sins, as we told you and warned you before. 7 For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life. 8 Therefore, anyone who rejects this instruction does not reject a human being but God, the very God who gives you his Holy Spirit.  This is a passage that I had memorized like 5 or 6 years ago and as you can tell it packs a punch.   Now let’s go back to last Wednesday and a conversation that I had with one of my dear friends that I do life with.   Most of you know that one of my struggles is lust namely porn.  I had mentioned that I look forward to the day when I do not have to have a filter on my computer anymore.  I also said I would still have the filter on my computer to protect me from unwanted surprises. Let’s just say we will agree to disagree on that.  What that means is I think I should he thinks I shouldn’t. So now it is Thursday morning and during my quite time I feel like I heard that the filters are your computers are what is preventing you’re from getting the freedom that you seek.   That witnessed to my spirit.  So that night my wife logged me in to the computer to block Facebook.  I heard turn off the filter so I did.  I did not tell my wife.  The next day I sent a text message to three of my brothers and they all agreed that I heard correctly and one said “you may have something there.”

Radical obedience always precedes the miraculous!  This time I decided to obey and then seek wise counsel.   I heard correctly.  You see I have four computers and Xbox and a smart phone.  Three have the filter one does not and neither does the Xbox or phone.  I will not look at anything on the unprotected electronics only the ones with the filter.  It is like a game to see if I can get around it.  Now fast forward to Tuesday morning and during my quiet time I felt like I needed to look up the Thessalonians scripture in the mirror version and this is what it said.  The Mirror 4:3 the resolve of God declares you innocent; this announcement frees you from fornication. (The resolve of God is declared in his accomplished redemption of the life of our design in Christ. Fornication is a form of idolatry, which is to be engaged with a distorted image of yourself.   It is to be obsessed with something that you feel you must have in order to complete you. Just like Eve was attracted to eat the fruit of the “I-am-not-tree”.) 4:4 every one of you should take ownership of your bodies with utmost care. The vessel takes its 1 value from the treasure it holds. (The word 1 timay means a valuing by which the price is fixed. See 2 Corinthians 4:7) 4:5 lusting after things with an all-consuming longing is typical of people who do not know how complete they already are in God.

I am free for the first time since August of 2001 I have computers that have no filters on them.   I don’t need them anymore.  I received a revelation from the Lord that I am complete in Him and the lie reveled to me was I needed porn, lust to feel good about myself to feel complete.  Wednesday night I told my wife.   Today there is no desire at all to go down that path of destruction while I sit in front of a computer with no filter.   Now I rely on Holy Spirit to keep me free and not something that is man-made!

Thank you Jesus!     And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.   The first part doesn’t work unless you die to yourself.

I wrote this Wednesday night and then Thursday morning I received this from the Lord. 

Isaiah 61:20 I delight greatly in the Lord;  my soul rejoices in my God for he has clothed me with garments of salvtion and arrayed me in a rob of rightousness, ....................

How is your Heart? Mine was not good.

November 24 was the last time I wrote from the heart.   12/15 doesn’t count.   When does a deceived person know he is deceived?  He does not and most of the time it creeps up on you and you don’t even know it.  You realize you have been deceived when you have revelation.   I feel that is what happened to me.  Luke 24:31 suddenly, their eyes were opened, and they recognized him. And at that moment he disappeared!  I feel like this is what has happened.  Let’s go back to the beginning when I got so freaking busy that I gradually stopped my quite time.  You know how it goes.  I will go over that scripture in my head in the truck and I will pray in the truck while I am driving.   Wow that is so intimate!  Then you catch yourself listening to ESPN and not praying at all.   I found myself getting up early and working on my computer and NOT spending time with Him.  I suffered         it was like a slow death but I did not know I was dying.   30 days of prep starts up for quest and I make the assignments for the staff and one of the assignments was me giving the Saturday morning devotion.   First time in three years that I did a devo but I felt like that was the Lord telling me.  (Even when you are deceived the Lord speaks) the 30 days of prep was a real struggle for me.  Every day I didn’t want to go, but I knew I had too.  I knew I was supposed to go.   I knew the Lord had something for me.  When Saturday came around I literally had nothing right up to the time to speak and then it all came together.   I got wrecked and I thought I heard “I miss you”   when I looked in my Bible (I thought that was me saying I miss you to the Lord)  on the bus ride home I heard I miss you Kevin.  During me devo the Lord took me back to 2006 when I went on Dreams and Visions and he said leave you electronics off in the morning until you spend time with me.  Something I have not been doing.

For some time now I have been reading my bible on the computer so I can make the font bigger …. Sounds right but so wrong for me.  That is not what the Lord said.  So since quest I have left my computer off and have spent time with Him every day reading in my PAPER bible.  Every morning I give Him the first fruits of my day.  My heart is being healed.  I have found it is so easy to be lazy and to read my bible on my phone.  Look up scripture on my phone.  That is all good, but in the morning for me it is spending time with Him and not my computer and Him.

Exodus 34:14  You must worship no other gods, for the LORD, whose very name is Jealous, is a God who is jealous about his relationship with you.

So........ How is your Heart?