Below is part of a writing I sent to the staff that
I am serving with next week for the November Quest. Last Wednesday is when I sent this to them. I did not see that it was an in your face
warning for me. I thought it was for the
questers and it still could be for them.
I have
been chewing on the passage since last Friday 23rd. I
just can’t get away from it. Does it have something to do with
me? Not sure yet. 2nd Corinthians 4:4 The survival and
self-improvement programs of the 1religious systems of this world veil the minds of the
unbelievers; exploiting their ignorance about their true origin and their
redeemed innocence. The veil of unbelief obstructs a person’s view and
keeps one from seeing what the light of the gospel so clearly reveals: the 2glory of God is the
image and likeness of our Maker redeemed in human form; this is what the gospel
of Christ is all about. (The god of this 1aion, age, refers to the religious systems and
governing structures of this world. The unbelief that neutralized Israel in the
wilderness was the lie that they believed about themselves; “We are
grasshoppers, and the ‘enemy’ is a giant beyond any proportion!” [Num 13:33,
Josh 2:11, Heb 4:6] “They failed to possess the promise due to unbelief.” The
blueprint 2doxa,
glory of God, is what Adam lost on humanity’s behalf. [See Eph 4:18]) The
Mirror
I have
left somethings in this writing off because it talks about the quest I am
leaving on next week.
What I
have learned is I am the one this is about not the questers.
2nd Corinthians 4:3 If our message seems vague
to anyone, it is not because we are withholding something from certain people!
It is just because some are so stubborn in their efforts to uphold an outdated
system that they don’t see it! They are all equally found in Christ but they
prefer to remain lost in the cul-de-sac language of the law! The Mirror
No doubt after reading my blog yesterday you
probably figured that while my wife was away fighting for women hearts I laid
my sword down. 2 Samuel 23:9-10 And next to him among the three mighty men
was Eleazar the son of Dodo, son of Ahohi. He was with David when they defied
the Philistines who were gathered there for battle, and the men of Israel
withdrew. He rose and struck down the Philistines until his hand was weary, and
his hand clung to the sword. And the LORD brought about a great victory that
day, and the men returned after him only to strip the slain. (2 Samuel 23:9-10
ESV) I did not strike the enemy down until my hand was weary. What I did
realize is that I tried my absolute hardest to walk in victory in my own
strength. Don't get me wrong I talked to my brothers who I do life with. I
was in the word every morning but I was deceived. I went to counseling
yesterday. I told her that several men that I do life with spoke truth
into me and gave me words of encouragement. I thought I received those words,
but I didn't. Because deep in my heart I already knew I was going to fall. My
counselor asked me this question. I thought you told me that you met with a
group of men that were transparent? I said, that's exactly what I told you
that's what we do we're transparent.
Then she said something that just made me very sad. She said, “Well, when they were speaking truth to you
and you knew in your heart that you were going to fall (unbelief) you didn't
say that to them. Therefore you were not
transparent and as we were talking about this she made another statement.
The reason you fell is because you are living out of the experience from your
past. You need to stop given weight to the evidence and instead start
giving weight to the truth. Then we
discovered the lie. What I have always thought the lie was what if I don't ever get to look at porn again? No the lie is …… if I never get to look at porn again I won't be ok.
Needless to say yesterday was a good day I am in a good place I set on
the couch last night with my wife and we talked about this. She is an amazing woman. From this day
forward I will be the warrior clinging to his sword. My heart is good.
