Break my heart for what breaks yours!

I get in my truck to take my daily morning commute this morning to get my caffeine.  While I am driving I am trying to listen to the radio about the election.  Five radio stations and nothing but commercials.  So I turn it off.  I begin to pray about whatever comes to my mind when I hear “what breaks my heart doesn’t break yours.  I think “Nice …….. God’s speaking”     So I am thinking what does that mean?    I immediately start thinking about my sin.  You know …… my lying, my overeating, my lust, my cursing  my my etc. ……. and thinking about my levels of sin.  (You know what I mean sexual sin is so much worse than being a liar or being lazy or being a gossip)  We all know that in the eyes of God sin is sin man gives the scale.  Why are we so quick to confess sexual sin,   when yesterday you just might have sinned by lying, cursing, stealing you know what I mean and didn’t call anyone?

I begin to think about the quest next week and usually what is going on with me tends to manifest on the quest with some of the men.  Right now my sin doesn’t break my heart when in the past it did.  So I tell a little white lie or I lust over something it could be a woman or not, or I curse …. Whatever I think you get the point.  Some days I get convicted and some days I don’t.  When I get home I try to look up “break my heart for what breaks yours.  It is not even scripture!  It is a lyric to the song Hosanna.  This is where I need to be …..  Something that I need / my heart needs to break for what breaks His. 

While looking for this scripture I came across Ezekiel and it floored me.  26 And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. 27 And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules. Ezekiel 36:26-27 esv.  This scripture is as much for me as what I think it has to do with this Quest.

I know for me That God sees me better than I see myself at times.  I know my friends see me better than I see myself sometimes.  So I am a work in progress.  A friend of mine who lost his son four weeks ago said this to me in a text message yesterday after our 30 minute phone conversation.

“Thanks Kevo, you are an inspiration.  That’s why I called you.  Needed that!!!!  Thanks for being a good friend!!!  

That text was like the Lord was speaking to me. 

Be blessed today!

Kevin

Will I surrender?

2:20 Indeed, I have been crucified with Christ. My ego is no longer central. It is no longer important that I appear righteous before you or have your good opinion, and I am no longer driven to impress God. Christ lives in me. The life you see me living is not “mine,” but it is lived by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I am not going to go back on that Gal 2.20 msg

Has that breaking of my independence come? All the rest is religious fraud. The one point to decide is— will I give up? Will I surrender to Jesus Christ, placing no conditions whatsoever as to how the brokenness will come? I must be broken from my own understanding of myself. When I reach that point, immediately the reality of the supernatural identification with Jesus Christ takes place. And the witness of the Spirit of God is unmistakable— “I have been crucified with Christ….”  Oswald chambers

If I refuse to walk in the light as He is in the light, I am the loser.”  Bill Bright, “Circumstances do not contribute to our misery. It’s our lack of understanding of who God is and his wonderful, holy purpose for us that frustrates so many.” He adds, “To surrender yourself totally, irrevocably, without reservation to the living Christ is the greatest privilege man can know.

So I am reading this morning in Matthew chpt 5 about anger and the next thing I know I am back to the topic of dying to myself again!  I read Oswald for the first time since April and he is all about Gal 2:20   I am listening to a song that keeps saying   “leave it all behind and come to the well.”  I click a link on my favorite’s bar that takes me to a blog about surrender and Gal 2:20 By Bill Bright and my last two blogs have been about dying to myself and sin cannot find any expression in a corpse.  Thank you Lord for your continued persistence.  It is easy to believe the obvious but there is something deeper that I am not seeing yet. 

God help me to love you more than myself and your glory more than my life.

So what does dying to yourself look like and are you doing it?