We all
do it. We are all judge, jury. I am guilty.
I get so tired of this. I think I
got this judging beat and then it raises its ugly head again. I received a phone call the other day telling
me about some decisions that someone else had made concerning me. I really upset me! What happened after that was worse. In my mind I decided why this person did what
they did. I know this person very
well. It does not matter how well though
…. I do not know there heart, only the Lord knows that. The phone call was Thursday afternoon, by Thursday
night I was so upset it affected my wife and my sleep. I went to bed angry which is a no no. I woke up worse. So mad I could not pray, did not want to
pray. Doesn’t this person get
it???? Don’t they understand???? Don’t they understand the decisions they are
making are not right???? Oh yeah …. The decisions
are affecting me. All this time ……… this
person had no idea the free fall I was in ….. How mad I was. I assigned a motive to this person’s actions
without ever talking to him.
JUDGMENT. I am tired ….. Tired of this person that tries to live in
me. Friday I wrote a letter to three men
that I respect very much. Hoping for some
sort of solution. All day Friday I
waited for a response…..nothing from them but plenty from the Lord. Go figure…… by the end of the day I knew what
needed to be done. When does a deceived person
know he is deceived? I kept hearing that
over and over. I had been duped. The cesspool (my depravity) I was walking in smelled
very bad. It was time to do what was right. It was time to do Matthew 5:23 “Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar
and there remember that your brother or sister has something against you, (Or I have something against them) Kevin Added. 24 leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go
and be reconciled to them; then come and offer your gift. I had men’s group Saturday morning. At one
point we talked about this very thing. In
my mind I hear …. It is so easy to tell others about judgment yet that is exactly
what you have been doing. Practice what
you preach. I left there broken but
relieved. I called this person and we talked
for 30 minutes. Everything thing I had
assumed was totally wrong and I was set free.
There was a reason for every decision that he made. Guess what?
None of it had anything to do with me.
The truth
is......... I caused every bit of the pain I was in.
I could see what was happening but for some reason I could not stop
it. The kicker is this ….. Because of
what I did I chose to suffer. Once that
process began then the enemy came in and started to twist things even more.
This was
not an attack in the beginning but it sure turned into a full fledged assault
in the middle of it all.
Thank
you Jesus for being in my corner.
Be Blessed Kevin
