“Name” “There are certain
things that exists in your heart that you may never discover unless you push
yourself hard enough to find it” from “Think
Differently” The Lord really spoke to me
about this Quote.
He showed me that there are areas where I am afraid to
go deep because I want to avoid the pain.
“NICE I thought” I am not
digging deep enough. This does not necessary
mean it is a bad thing in my heart it could be something good as well. I have to dig though. I just got back off of Quest that is where I
found the quote. It was in my quest
journal from 2010. I thought about this
the whole time I was on the event. The
big thing happened when I got back. The
normal has been that I am so emotionally, spiritually and physically whipped
that I will fall to porn in some form or fashion. NOT THIS TIME!
This week I am free and walking as a son. Something that impacted the biggest was the quote
I heard.
“Is your joy bigger than your cross?”
I cannot get that out of my mind. The Lord has shown me that the battle that I
have, has been bigger than my Joy. So right now I get it …… I get it. I get it so much I am in tears. Lord I repent from not trusting you. I was supposed to go to the FTS Warrior
breakfast this morning. I just felt I
was supposed to stay home and write and now I know why.
Hebrews 12:2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter
of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame,
and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. As a man Jesus walked with joy to the cross.
I cannot tell you how many times I have read this
scripture or for the matter all of Hebrews 12:1-4 ….. This just jacks me up right now. In my mind I am just derailed about this…. The
joy knowing where He is going….. The obedience that He is walking in.
All this time my Cross … MY CROSS has been bigger
than my joy.I looked up Google images of Demons two days ago to get a visual of what I have been letting enter into my body. It literally scared the crap out of me. You think I am joking? Google demons and just think about that the next time to try to manipulate someone or look at porn or choose to have an affair. I think you get the point.
So my question to you is this. That one thing that you still struggle with. Is your joy bigger than your cross? (the cross is anything … lying, lust, porn, adultery, idolatry, pride to name a few.)
Hebrews 12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a
great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin
that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out
for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the
pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the
cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition
from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. 4 In your struggle against sin, you have not
yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.
In your presence Lord there is peace and joy
Thanks Keeman. Today and every day.
ReplyDeleteMark
I googled demon images. Kinda wish I hadn't. Those are disturbing and to think I had a whole family of those things in me. I hate it when one of them starts knocking and my mind even entertains the idea of opening the door. Thank you for your emails. They are so uplifting and so appreciated.
ReplyDeleteYour brother in Christ,
Andrew
Great word brother, I'm proud of you for embracing this revelation given to you. I know I try to avoid thinking about demons, or what they look like... But maybe I need to also get a glimpse of the face of the demon as well, I think I'll go googling for it.
ReplyDeleteScott
Happiness is easy to understand, but joy? I like this understanding of joy - joy is the fulfillment of hope. We hope for joy. Upon the fulfillment of joy comes a new hope. Repeat for the rest of your life.
ReplyDeleteJoy is not the same as happiness because it is a durable state of mind and not purely emotional.
Tom Wilson
What a genuine blessing it is to me to read your struggles and conquests as you seek the Lord. I am always encouraged when you open your heart to reveal your struggles, failures, VICTORIES, as you battle with the enemy. You are a great warrior!! And I am especially blessed to have you as my son-in-law, and I know my sweet daughter lives with a real man of God. Fight on!!
ReplyDeleteSteve
Kee,
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing this. Hit me right where I needed it.
David,