How is your Heart? Mine was not good.

November 24 was the last time I wrote from the heart.   12/15 doesn’t count.   When does a deceived person know he is deceived?  He does not and most of the time it creeps up on you and you don’t even know it.  You realize you have been deceived when you have revelation.   I feel that is what happened to me.  Luke 24:31 suddenly, their eyes were opened, and they recognized him. And at that moment he disappeared!  I feel like this is what has happened.  Let’s go back to the beginning when I got so freaking busy that I gradually stopped my quite time.  You know how it goes.  I will go over that scripture in my head in the truck and I will pray in the truck while I am driving.   Wow that is so intimate!  Then you catch yourself listening to ESPN and not praying at all.   I found myself getting up early and working on my computer and NOT spending time with Him.  I suffered         it was like a slow death but I did not know I was dying.   30 days of prep starts up for quest and I make the assignments for the staff and one of the assignments was me giving the Saturday morning devotion.   First time in three years that I did a devo but I felt like that was the Lord telling me.  (Even when you are deceived the Lord speaks) the 30 days of prep was a real struggle for me.  Every day I didn’t want to go, but I knew I had too.  I knew I was supposed to go.   I knew the Lord had something for me.  When Saturday came around I literally had nothing right up to the time to speak and then it all came together.   I got wrecked and I thought I heard “I miss you”   when I looked in my Bible (I thought that was me saying I miss you to the Lord)  on the bus ride home I heard I miss you Kevin.  During me devo the Lord took me back to 2006 when I went on Dreams and Visions and he said leave you electronics off in the morning until you spend time with me.  Something I have not been doing.

For some time now I have been reading my bible on the computer so I can make the font bigger …. Sounds right but so wrong for me.  That is not what the Lord said.  So since quest I have left my computer off and have spent time with Him every day reading in my PAPER bible.  Every morning I give Him the first fruits of my day.  My heart is being healed.  I have found it is so easy to be lazy and to read my bible on my phone.  Look up scripture on my phone.  That is all good, but in the morning for me it is spending time with Him and not my computer and Him.

Exodus 34:14  You must worship no other gods, for the LORD, whose very name is Jealous, is a God who is jealous about his relationship with you.

So........ How is your Heart?